Reality

We got up and met Oksana to take paperwork to the notary this morning.  We finally got to the orphanage around 2:00.  It was weird that it felt familiar.  When we walked in the door, there were several girls who remembered us from last time and came up to say “Hi” and hug us before we ever saw Kristina.  We went for along walk through a local park and talked some.  She was very quiet today…quiet even for her.  She  did ask questions about court…what she would wear, who would be there, how would she get there, etc.  She also talked about being scared …scared she would miss her friends, scared she wouldn’t learn English, scared she wouldn’t have friends in America, scared of all the snakes and lizards (LOL).  I think the reality that she will be leaving everything she has ever known is hitting her.  I tried to tell her that I understood. I promised her that even though it would be hard in the beginning, no matter what happened or how long it took, we were her family and we were committed to her and we would love her and work through whatever it takes.  I think she is trying to believe that, but it must be hard.  I can’t even imagine how hard it must be for her and scary the next step must seem.  I am praying that my own fears won’t be felt by her, that the Lord will give her a peace that she does not understand about her future, and she will feel our love for her even if she can’t understand our words.

Christy

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